Fitting The Gay Scene

This website is getting some responses from all over the world and I'm quite happy about that: this gives my work a sense.
I'm planning to build a page where to collect them all: I'd be glad to know your coming out stories and the way you came to terms with your sexuality.
By the way, I was very pleased to get a message from Damon who briefly summarized his life and told me my entries had raised many questions in his mind. He added that "we are all over this world, living our different lives, in diverse places, all in search of that one thing. Love"
Thanks for your appreciation, Damon, it's so nice to find someone who shares some of my principles and to regain some trust in the gay scene. Same as you, during my childhood I always had a best friend and later on, I perceived I was feeling for guys what straight guys feel about girls.
Some of the things you wrote I could have written myself, I absolutely share it: I'm just missing the optimistic part of your writing 'cause I never found what I wished to. Maybe I've just to hope and wait...
I think it's positive not to fit the gay scene because, you know, I haven't a high opinion of it: these lines are absolutely impartial, as far as I can.
I mean, in this blog I wanna preserve gay people from common biases but nevertheless I don't agree with many behaviors of gay men in general who think sex is a shortcut to love, who live many compromises they suppose to be unavoidable, who even talk to each other using feminine pronouns albeit in a joking way.
I reckon all of this very derogatory and stupid: aren't we discriminated enough? At least couldn't WE avoid to tease OURSELVES?

Was I always gay?

This is one of the hardest questions to be answered. I was remembered of it reading a blog of a guy who e-mailed me. Thanks for writing, Robert...
The question I used to ask myself included as well: "Could I have gotten different?"
I mean, if during our adolescence we live a homosexual experience is that gonna influence us? I honesty don't know...
I was never involved in anything of the kind when I was younger, even though I had a close friendship with a guy who afterwards realized to be gay. Could he have influenced me?
My personal answer is not 100% sure, but it tends a lot to be negative...
If I look back at my past years I was never attracted or excited by women so I'm pretty sure... today, when I'm traveling by train and I can stare at the women sitting before me without making anyone suspicious, I think to myself "How the fuck could I be aroused by them?"
However I don't know if a shocking sexual experience during childhood - I never had any of them at that time - can be so decisive to change one's sexuality throughout life... I believe that adolescence is a very critical period in which many facets of ourselves are "under development" and sexuality is finding its way to emerge, so, even if I think it's not possible to persuade a grown-up to change his sexual identity, maybe things *could* be different for a child... in any case it wouldn't be so easy, IMHO...
But this consideration does not clash with my conviction according to which homosexuality is never a choice...
The second point is: does it make any sense to say: "When I was 10 I was straight" if, being that age, you had no sexual life at all?
'Coming out is a journey for sure' wrote Rob and I can't help but agreeing...