How Gay Old Are You?

Have you ever noticed the anxious way (nearly) every gay man is related with his own age?
We always dread we're getting too much old and we're gonna live alone or we wasted our time and the opportunities we had...
I can't forget the hopeless expression some mature gay men had when I saw them hooking up some younger lads who usually gave them a nausated look... I really could see the weight of loneliness and old age on their shoulders...
As to me, I got resigned, I now think that so few things can last a lifetime and love is the most uncommon among these ones.
The other day I read an impressive sentence about time going by and gay people: it said that a gay is as old as the number of experiences and love affairs he has gotten through.
Well, this can seem so trivial but stop and think about it: during our desperate quest for Mr Right we use to bump into so many people, we use to deceive ourselves so many times, we use to drift through so many ups and downs that some straight men could ask where we did found that willpower...
In my opinion, it's not a lie to state that, coming down this path, we keep on changing more than everyone else: the firt step is an idealistic and naif phase but it's just the beginning and most of our dreams are mercinessly crushed by life and the way it goes.
How about straight people? I guess many of them don't live this lack of steadiness, they closet into a so-called "happy marriage" and avoid this attritional route...