Evan's Journey

Sorry for not posting in these days but have been through a lot of troubles and concerns.
In these weeks I've met a smart guy, the webmaster of Il Viaggio di Evan (Evan's Journey), a gay blog that is strongly advised for all Italian-speakers homosexuals but for straight people as well, you'll discover that love and the need for a strong point of reference in our life has no sexual orientation.
However I met him last week and spent some pleasurable hours together *^^*
Yesterday he told me he was in love with another guy he had met in the meantime but was chatting with since quite a long - and of course I wish him every happiness, although for myself I wish things had turned out differently
Yeah, I must be sincere in this blog and I never been a saint or sorts: so I don't see any reason for being such an altruistic person...
Just kidding: I realized today that I have good feelings about this guy, so I do care for his happiness and wish him every success in his relationships but, I also care for mine :P

Dreaming Of Some Caresses

Over the years I have dreamt of being caressed by someone I love and who loves me as much.
The face, the hand and the body of this someone in my dreams has changed...
Nowadays I no longer dream of being caressed because I no longer hold an image in my mind of who I want to be caressed by...
It's easy to obtain false affection and caresses from someone who is only out to satisfy his lust. Likewise, I could indulge in a night of fun, but it wouldn't be the same thing at all.
Resuming the topic I treated yesterday (why a person is gay) I'd like to know your personal experiences...
Please don't wanna keep on begging... write me!!!
I started this blog just to find a contact with someone else and if I don't get it, every thing will be forsaken soon.