Dreaming Of Some Caresses

Over the years I have dreamt of being caressed by someone I love and who loves me as much.
The face, the hand and the body of this someone in my dreams has changed...
Nowadays I no longer dream of being caressed because I no longer hold an image in my mind of who I want to be caressed by...
It's easy to obtain false affection and caresses from someone who is only out to satisfy his lust. Likewise, I could indulge in a night of fun, but it wouldn't be the same thing at all.
Resuming the topic I treated yesterday (why a person is gay) I'd like to know your personal experiences...
Please don't wanna keep on begging... write me!!!
I started this blog just to find a contact with someone else and if I don't get it, every thing will be forsaken soon.